This is a phrase I heard a lot when I first got diagnosed. “New Normal”. My oncology team and caseworkers all told me to adjust as best as I can, and embrace my new *temporary* normal. That was some of the best advice I got in the midst of all the chaos. To just embrace it all. And I did just that. And as soon as I did, my attitude shifted and I started just taking things day by day, minute by minute, just doing what’s in front of me. And before I knew it, here I am at the finish line, about to start my fourth and final cycle of chemotherapy tomorrow. I found ways to embrace my month long hospital stays, I found friends who are going through or have been through the same thing as me, and I found support, (Not that I had to look hard for it, so many people were awesome and reached out to me and have been super supportive and helpful).
An important lesson I learned in my “New Normal”, was finding a way to be okay with not being okay. Realizing that being sad or having a bad day does not make me a negative person, it does not change my attitude. It’s okay to feel all the uncomfortable feelings that come with life threatening disease and prolonged stays in the hospital. All of the feelings that come with this emotional rollercoaster demand to be felt. And I realized I can be feel them without letting it consume me and change my outlook.
Sometimes life gets shitty, but it’s all just temporary.